I just wanted to send out a quick thank you to everyone who has shown my family their love and support.
On Saturday, when I posted that I was bleeding, my blog got 348 hits and so many people sent me comments, tweets, and messages offering their words and prayers of encouragement and hope. This was my blog’s 2nd busiest day, and only by like 20 views.
After announcing the miscarriage, I received a whopping 702 views, and hundreds of comments, tweets, messages, and emails. I’m not joking. Hundreds. 702 people cared enough to click and hundreds took the extra step to offer their condolences. I am so blessed.
Thank you from the bottom of my heart for this. It really has helped me emotionally. My phone was going off nonstop with notifications last night, and for each one that came in, my heart became a little bit warmer. It’s hard to explain, but this has helped me tremendously. And I am not lying when I say that I believe it has hugely contributed to how well I am doing emotionally. Serious. Thank you so so so much. You have made a difference.
Many of you have mentioned admiring, or finding it inspirational, how well I am handling this, and I have a few things to say about that.
Not long after I found out we were pregnant, my dear friends lost their baby boy at 19 weeks gestation. Although it was technically considered a miscarriage, it wasn’t. Nicole gave birth to her son, held his beautiful, tiny body, named him Julian, and brought home his ashes. This broke my heart. It also emotionally prepared me for the possibility of our own loss.
I have been amazed at the amount of strength that Brad and Nicole have had through this horribly tragic event. They are, of course, in mourning, but they have done such a great job at keeping a positive outlook on life and their future. Had this happened to me, it would have destroyed me.
So, thank you Brad and Nicole for being a true inspiration – and thank you, Julian; you have impacted so many lives, including mine.
I know God has a plan and that He also knew that I would not have handled this so well with our first pregnancy. But now, when I think about my Baby, I look over at Lila and see her beautiful smiling face, who’s more often than not, laughing at something totally random. I look at my daughter and can’t help but smile. I am so blessed to have her and and I know that we will be blessed with another baby who will be just as perfect. I owe it to my daughter to stay positive and to keep this from impacting her. Lila is my number one priority.
Well, this started out as a “quick thank you” but ended up kind of long. Sorry about that.
But again, thank you. You have all helped with my emotional healing. I was home alone with Lila for most of last night, yet I wasn’t – I had all of you. Thank you.